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She was my first follower.

About a year and a half ago, my cousin and I were chatting at a family party. I told her I needed an outlet besides work and parenting and was planning to start this blog. She loved the idea! She was so supportive.

Of course I wanted her opinion. She worked at a farm stand when she was a teenager. When I thought about farm stands, I often thought about her.

As soon as I published my very first post, I texted her.

She was living out on the West Coast then. Within an hour, my first little blue WordPress notice popped up on my phone. “meaghan.elizabeth.burns is now following you!”

On her birthday, she posted this comment:

The love of family. I thought about that comment many times in those early days. It was just so encouraging. I hope you all have someone cheering you on in your life and your smallest accomplishments, like I had Meggers.

She was my first follower. And now she is gone.

I’m staring at her comment today because it is so kind, so positive, so thoughtful. It keeps her alive a little bit. I am not going to write about her death. If you can handle reading something very heartbreaking, you can search for the news.

Meaghan Burns of South Deerfield, Massachusetts: born August 25, 1995 – died May 4, 2019

Today, I want to remember her bright, shining 23 years of living. I want to memorialize the little, everyday moments we had with her.

Like the time she went on her phone and followed her cousin’s blog.

Like when she took time on her last birthday to write a comment. It meant a lot then. But now, oh my God. It takes the breath out of me. I love her so much.

My aunt, uncle and her little sister wrote a touching obituary for her. Here’s a link.

12 thoughts on “She was my first follower.

  1. I’m saddened by this deep loss that your whole family is experiencing! It’s wonderful that you’re focusing on the positives of your cousin’s short life.

    1. Thank you for your kindness and reaching out.

  2. I am sorry for your loss.

    1. Thank you, sincerely

  3. Blessings to the people in our lives that inspire and support us through the challenges and see us rise above our own doubts. Remembering the bright light coming from Meaghan and how she shared it with us. 🙏

  4. So very sorry for your loss. Sad to see someone pass away so young. I lost my mom and no words can bring her back, but I still want to say that I am sorry for the suffering your loss causes you.

    1. Thank you. My heartfelt condolences on the passing of your mother, as well.

  5. I am so sorry for your loss 😢 I did read the obituary by the end I was in tears. So heartbreaking. Prayers for you and all of your family 💕

    1. You are so sweet. We are rallying around each other as a family. And will get through it. And be inspired by Meggy’s life.

  6. My heart is heavy with sadness for all of you. I read the obituary and wow, it’s very clear … the world lost a beautiful human <3

  7. So sorry to hear of your loss. A beautiful post.

    1. Thank you. So very kind of you.

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